10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now:
1. I love you so much i really do and i feel you have doubts but i'm just not all that cuddly in front of other people. I also never want to leave your side because when i do my thoughts always trace back to you.
2. I love you and i'll always seen you as the better of the two of us and i have a lot of respect for you. Though i feel that you aren't as happy with m anymore because you get mad so easily now... Also i really think you should dye your hair between blue and purple. it would look cool
3. I hate your guts. If you had any balls i would've kicked you there by now. I wish you would just shut up for more then five seconds and stop caring because when it actually gets down to the point you don't care at all. Now shut up and drop dead damnit!
4. You scare me. You drive me insane. You're always texting me. It's like your controlling me in your own way and yet i can't tell you how i really feel because i fear you harming yourself. and yet i love you.
5. marshmallows are not a condiment.
6. Rap sucks your an asshole and i really truly do hate your guts.
7. I hate you for what you did to me and yet i still have feelings for you. you promised we'd still be friends and yet you still haven't talked to me. i hope your next girlfriend is as boring as you.
8. Love and lust are not the same thing.
9. you have toilet paper stuck to your shoe.
10. Just cause i'm a cat doesn't mean i don't like dogs or water. in fact i love dogs and swimming.

9 things people may not know about you:
1. I miss Jersey and i really want to go back.
2. I hate myself.
3. I have had twelve dogs, one cat, one snake and 5 fish (currently one hedgehog)
4. I don't hate Canada just a particular person in Canada
5. I really hate being talked to about other's problems but i care about people too much to even admit it.
6. I still miss my father even though he broke my heart and mind.
7. I don't hate America i just hate stupidity.
8. I'm afraid of sharp objects such as knives.
9. I might have more problems then my friends...

8 ways to win your heart:
1. Don't come crying to me for every little thing.
2. Be poetic. win my heart with words not hugs.
3. Respect me for what i am. an independent woman.
4. Be strong. So i don't have to.
5. Don't tell me what i want to hear but what you really think.
6. Chivalry lives.
7. Don't worry about me. overprotection is unnecessary.
8. Make me laugh.

7 things that cross your mind a lot:
1. I wonder how alyssa's doing?
2. I'm bored.
3. What was i doing again?
4. Need food...
5. Why kill yourself?
6. Did i eat breakfast this morning?
7. I wonder how they see the world. what they think of...

6 things you do before you sleep:
1. brush teeth.
2. shower.
3. read
4. call Bf
5. Wonder
6. change

5 things you notice in the opposite sex:
1. eyes
2. personality
3. heart (kindness kinda shtuff)
4. CHIVALRY!
5. Fun or not

4 things you wish you never did/had:
1. lied
2. hoped
3. felt emotion
4. trusted

3 songs to describe your life:
1. i'm only me when i'm with you- taylor swift
2. everything went numb- streetlight manifesto
3. I hate everything about you- three days grace

2 things you want to do before you die:
1. find my father
2. tell my friends i love them

1 confession:
1. Every day and every waking moment i think and i feel. And i study. i study life. i study people. I feel and understand their thoughts by how they move talk or react. i'm not psychic. but i'm not stupid either. I read people like i do books. when i say something i think up their reaction before they even have time to react. And everyday i feel myself slip more and more from society and now i feel embarassed and that most people who read this will now think i'm a weirdo they should avoid :sigh: